#no i love him but he‘s driving me insane but i hate i mean love him

[anantaru]

i love alhaitham‘s tits i mean personality

[billkaulitzwife]

The Outsiders Coping With a Breakup

(ps guys im not over it leave me alone(i also watched the notebook and i hate myself))

Ponyboy

Reading or writing.

How could you ever hurt this little freshman boy he‘s such a sweetheart

He would probably silently cry into a pillow until he thought his lungs were about to collapse or cave in

if this was now … he‘d chain smoke and listen to lana del rey while looking out a moonlit window

he definitely listens to Elvis to get over it.

I don’t know what exactly he would read to get over it but probably some sad ass Edgar Allan Poe. Annabelle Lee lookin ass.

He‘d write the most heart breaking

tear dripping

heavy breathing sad poetry ever.

show him a romance novel.

he’d never stop reading them until he got over it.

just the bare thought of it drives him nuts.

so he reads.

Johnny

if you hurt this man he would probably hurt himself.

he would dream bout it and wake up in cold sweats, tears running down his face.

in all honesty

i think he‘d be artistic with it

he’d somehow turn each and every single tiny thought into something about you

whether it be thinking about a teddy bear then contorting it into nothing but an image of you and him.

he would never be able to look at the places you went together the same.

he would be an artist.

hand him a pencil and he’ll make your heart break and ache.

might etch and sketch on himself to see if you still care.

ps you obviously do.

Dallas

Doesn’t know how.

All this man does is sleep, drink, fuck, repeat.

being honest this manwhore is probably gonna screw every hoe in Tulsa to try and get his mind off of it,

but every path leads back to what he knows best.

he would smoke more,

party more,

drink away all his problems, etc before facing a problem head on.

people may see him as this

uhh

violent gang member hoodlum kid guy man

but deep down hes really just a kid who wishes he couldve given his momma one more hug

a kid that needed to be loved.

a kid that was never taught how to be loved.

Adelaide

crier.

she’s a big ol’ crier, but it doesnt matter since thats not the only way she copes.

she loves to paint and puts every emotion into her paintings.

she may’ve become a kleptomaniac since she needs the supplies.

the curtis boys would

PERSONALLY

kill you if anything happened to her

one heartbreak and shes done for

love? whats that? it isnt real?

dont hurt her no matter what.

she would also turn to cigarettessss (as if she doesnt smoke enough).

adelaide would develop stage five lung cancer before even admitting that love could in the slightest exist anymore.

Sodapop

working.

soda seems like the kinda guy to go through a breakup and cry a lot

but the only thing that really helped was work.

he’d probably get a raise

yk with how hard and how much he’d be working to get over it.

his siblings would warn him about not overworkimg himself

and guess what.

he didnt listen and got really sick from all the stress.

i know for a fact he would keep away from cigarettes even if someone said they help and he believed it

he would only ever listen to the radio

hoping and praying that when he’d hear a love song he‘d hear your voice

Darrell

probably the most sane of everybody while dealing with his bs

he wld obviously be heart broken

but not to the point he needed some insane coping mechanism.

he would probably meditate.

i mean this is the sixties cmon he’s either gonna do wxxd

or meditate.

as soon as a thought of you came up and his mind started to panic he would sit on the couch and

well.

relax.

he probably has the healthiest coping mechanism he’s definitely got his life together

the others are jealous as fuuuuck

Steve

bro wouldnt eat.

every time he thought about the breakup

he thought it was because he was strong enough

or that he was too chubby for his girl.

one time he passed out while on the way to work and the gang freaked out so bad

they couldnt take him to the hospital so they carried him home and stuck a juice box in his mouth

eventually his ass woke up and they all cheered like the war had just ended “HIP HOORAY!”

but then in all seriousness

he needed to get his weight back up so the curtis kids make him eat at their house

even if he says he ate.

theres always snacks for him laying around thay house from then on out

Two-Bit

drinking.

do i have to explain.

in the novel pony said two-bit was famous for shoplifting and his black-handled switchblade…

but for some reason i know he wouldnt shoplift any more.

(he sure did teach adelaide how to tho)

along with his love for “shopping” you gotta remember he’s a heavy alcoholic

he’d drink away all of his problems and thoughts until he blacked out.

his buddies would think its just your average keith

but in all reality he’s really struggling

even though he seems like the usual drunk happy joking guy

HE IS HURTTT.

okay thanks for watching todays vlog

if u ever need to vent please dont be scared to message me bruv im sure Ik how to help.

[kyouxa]

Diabolik lovers Dark Fate: Kou Mukami (No.07)

To get the vampire ending, just choose the M (blue) choices. For the manservant ending, choose S (violet) choices. The brute ending will require you to choose both S and M choices. Please no reposting onto other sites, and please ask me before translating this into another language!

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Kitchen

Yui: — It’s done, Vongole Bianco!

(Alright, I think I even did a really good job making it)

(It would be great if Kou-kun could get a little better after eating this)

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Living room

Yui: (Nobody’s here anymore… did everyone already return back to their own rooms?)

(Hm? Did I just see someone standing on the balcony… ?)

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Balcony

Ruki: ...What is it? Do you need something?

Yui: I don’t really need anything in particular, I just saw Ruki-kun standing here all alone by himself…

Did I disturb your thoughts while coming here or anything?

Ruki: ...Not really. However, I was merely looking at the sky until you arrived.

Yui: (Seeing Ruki-kun’s face from the side like this… he really does look rather serious than carefree)

(Can’t I somehow help him? Not knowing when the founders might attack us again must drive him insane at some point)

Ruki: By the way, what‘s that dish for?

Yui: Ah, about that. I simply made it because I want Kou-kun to eat it.

Ruki: ...Right in time. I have something I wanted to tell you about this matter.

Don’t get any closer to Kou from now on.

Yui: Eh… what do you mean?

Ruki: I mean exactly what I said.

Yui: Why are you... telling me this now all of the sudden?

Ruki: Kou has been rather disliking your company ever since the recent incident happened.

Yui: ...Nn! Why is that… ?

Ruki: Because of you being so close to him, Kou got seriously wounded to begin with.

Yui: (Yes, he‘s right. These wolves attacked the mansion just because of me in the first place…)

Ruki: After being defeated, Kou must’ve suffered from this feeling.

If he’d look at you, he’d surely remember the defeat he suffers from. Considering this, this may be the reason why he doesn’t want to see your face these days.

Choices

1) I don‘t want to believe this…

2) This must be a lie! ♡ ♡ ♡

— I don’t want to believe this…

Yui: (I don’t want to believe this… however, I can’t help but keep in mind that I’m the one who caused them all these injuries and the uneasiness)

(Until now he has been looking at me with such a gloomy expression… he also went back to his room all by himself without even trying to rely on me)

— This must be a lie! ♡

Yui: (This must be a lie he’s telling me! If he really doesn’t want to see my face, he would’ve told me directly about it)

(But it may be true that his feelings got hurt by losing this battle, and that he suffers each time he remembers it…)

end Choices

Yui: (I… what should I do? I don‘t want to be a burden on Kou-kun as well)

Did Kou-kun really say that himself? Did he really say… that he doesn’t want to see my face from now on… ?

Ruki: ...That‘s right. But, he also mentioned that telling you this face to face would be troublesome for him as well.

Yui: ...Nn!

*Ruki smashes plate* (¹)

Ruki: Any further mental pressure, also hinders the healing of his wounds. That‘s why you should avoid your contact to Kou from now on.

Yui: (Kou-kun has been feeling down like this ever since he woke up in the demon world…)

(All I wanted was for him to return to his normal lively self again, I didn‘t mean to make him feel uncomfortable talking to me… but it seems as if I‘ve rather irritated Kou-kun)

(I feel a troublesome pain in my heart, which makes it hard to respond to him… maybe I‘m really nothing more than a nuisance)

Ruki: You probably need to think about all of this in private for the time being, especially since you have feelings for Kou.

...You should return to your room now. This may have been surprising to hear all of the sudden.

Yui: (Kou-kun…)

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Living room

Kou: Hm… what? Nobody’s even here.

...Hm? That is…

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Balcony

Kou: What‘s this? A dish… from the kitchen?

*Kou picks up plate*

Yuma: What’s it? Are you feeling a little better after waking up?

Kou: Yuma-kun, this is…

Yuma: Hah? What’s this dish doing all spilled over here? Such a waste.

Geez, this must’ve been sow‘s work. She was saying something about encourage you with something just a while ago.

Kou: M Neko-chan’s work… then, why isn’t she here?

Yuma: I dunno. Maybe her main point was to leave it here alone to begin with?

Kou: ...I see. Okay.

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Entrance hall

Kou: (She did this to encourage me… what was that supposed to be about? Haa…)

If you already made it, you could’ve also brought it to me… idiot.

Ruki: Kou, where are you going?

Kou: Ah… Ruki-kun. Did you see M Neko-chan around?

Ruki: That woman should be in her room.

Kou: Alright. Thank you.

Ruki: Wait, Kou. You shouldn‘t get closer to that woman anymore.

Kou: Huh… ? What’s that supposed to mean?

Ruki: You must’ve noticed it yourself already.

Kou: Even so… what are you talking about?

Ruki: You already know you can’t become Adam.

Kou: ...Nn!

Ruki: It‘s not only about you though. Those who were originally human beings, simply can’t become Adam.

Kou: That’s… but…

Ruki: Do you have something you want to say to me?

Kou: ...Ruki-kun, are you just simply accepting that?

Ruki: Whether I accept it or not, is irrelevant.

Kou: Ruki-kun… did you talk about that with M Neko-chan by any chance?

Do you know why this plate was laying all broken on the balcony?

Ruki: ...With this, our discussion is officially over.

Kou: You can’t hide things all you want… as it pleases you! What‘s your deal... !?

Ruki: I don‘t need you to rebel around more than necessary. All of us are merely allowed to exist as long as we accomplish his desires in the first place.

For that reason we have chosen the right choices and the proper paths up until now. We’ve done so, and we will continue to do so.

Kou: But that has nothing to do with M Neko-chan worrying about me—

Ruki: Then, what is it that you‘ll choose? (²)

Kou: Ruki!!

Ruki: I’m done with this conversation. Listen, Kou. Think carefully about it.

*Ruki leaves*

Kou: ...I know that I can’t become Adam, whether I like it or not. I already knew this…

...Fuck!

Place: Sakamaki mansion — Yui’s bedroom

Yui: I wonder if Kou-kun really hates me by now…

(But as Ruki-kun said, it’s true that my presence is the only reason Kou-kun and everyone else got involved into this entire mess…)

(Even if he gets frustrated by simply looking at my face… I suppose it can‘t be helped)

What’s the best thing to do now… ?

(I’m still… in love with Kou-kun. Despite this, what should I do?)

Monologue

It was Kou-kun who protected me from all of this happening.

Because he saved me, he recently started to bite his lips more frequently in frustration.

I can’t help but constantly wonder what Kou-kun has stuck on his mind… yet I don’t understand any of it.

He promised that he’ll protect me forever before that.

But Ruki-kun’s advice was not to approach him any longer.

I was told that I was only brought along with them because of my blood to begin with.

Yet I’m also aware of Ruki-kun having a way stronger bond to his siblings than I do with them.

However, I‘m concerned if the way Kou-kun chooses will be the right one.

—

(¹) I‘m not quite sure if Ruki was the one smashing the plate, or if it was Yui dropping it. You just heard a simple plate breaking sound, but I‘d rather consider it being Ruki because of what he said.

(²) Apparently this is supposed to mean that Kou might end up choosing Yui‘s side instead of his brothers, even though he can‘t become Adam. To abandon him who showed them the right way up until now and even gave them the chance to live once more. I can‘t believe Ruki makes him choose between his brothers and the one he loves, that‘s messed up.

[bts-fantasy]

Angels & Demons (pt. 2)

Pairing: Taehyung (/Jimin) x Reader

Genre: Angst, Fantasy

Previous

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„Jimin, please don‘t do this...“, you pleaded quietly.

Jimin smirked leaning forward to meet your eyes.

„Why? You don‘t like seafood?“

You shook your head vigorously making a grimace to stress your opinion about the dish.

„I hate seafood!“

Jimin chuckled leaning back in his wooden chair as he looked down at his menu card again.

He had been waiting for you downstairs when you stormed out of your apartment earlier and you had forgotten all about your anger over Taehyung when you saw Jimin smiling brightly up at you.

He drove you to a fancy restaurant on top of the hill with a nice panoramic view of the city.

„Okay, okay, I‘ll order something else.“

You relaxed again because you wouldn‘t have to look at dead lobsters or shrimps tonight.

The night went on perfectly smooth and Jimin proved to be a great company and you were positively surprised when you caught yourself warming up to him with every second that passed.

The drive back home was filled with stories about each other's lives and you really enjoyed the time spent with Jimin. He stopped the car in your driveway and you looked up to your apartment trying not to think about facing Taehyung again. Jimin turned around in his seat to face you with a warm look in his eyes. He smiled down at you taking your hands in his caressing the back with his thumbs.

„Y/N... thank you for an amazing night“, he whispered lowly not breaking the eye contact with you even once. Before you could say anything his lips were on yours moving slowly as you let yourself fall deep into his spell. The kiss quickly turned from passionate to needy and you could feel his hands everywhere. Your hands moved up to his head messing up his perfectly styled hair. He made you feel so wild and carefree that you couldn‘t take your hands off of him.

Suddenly he backed away from the kiss breathing heavily with a dark crazy look in his eyes.

„Are you alone at home?“ He asked thickly while he pushed a strand of hair behind your ear caressing your cheeks so sweetly that you couldn‘t think straight anymore. You knew Taehyung would usually go on a night walk at this hour and even if he wasn‘t you couldn‘t care less at the moment. All you wanted was to let yourself fall deep into this strange feeling you felt towards Jimin, so you just nodded. A wide smile spread across his face before he pulled you into another deep kiss.

You both walked upstairs and you prayed for your apartment to be empty. When you finally opened the door you sighed with relief when you saw that his coat was gone. He wouldn‘t be back until later tonight, that much you knew.

Jimin had already taken a seat on your couch and patted on the empty spot next to him and you walked over to sit down.

„Close your eyes...“, he breathed out. He raised his hand to softly trace your lips with his index finger and you closed your eyes as you tried to focus on his touch only.

„Y/N... you’re so beautiful.“ His voice rolled thickly off his tongue and sent shivers down your spine.

Soon you felt his lips on yours again and you took in the sweet taste that only left you wanting more. It felt like you were in a trance losing all control over your body, you had never felt like this before.

With each second you lost more and more of control and slowly panic rose inside of your chest. You wanted to pull back but couldn‘t because strangely your body didn‘t want to listen to you anymore.

„Jimin...“, your voice was quiet and wheezy but he heard you loud and clear. He chuckled darkly still kissing you ignoring your attempt to stop. The low chuckle turned into a burst of sneering laughter as he bit hard into your lower lip. The taste of blood spread in your mouth and the panic took your breath out. Your chest rose and fell hastily when he finally pulled away from you to look at you with a triumphant smirk on his face.

„Oh, silly girl...“

He shook his head sarcastically as you still couldn‘t move an inch of your own body. You knew he was doing something to you but you couldn‘t tell what exactly was going on. A few minutes ago you were on cloud nine and now it felt like you were in hell.

„What-“, you croaked out looking into his cold eyes, the warmth in them long gone.

„You made it way too easy for me, Y/N. Your parents were way more of a challenge to get rid of.“ He sighed deeply pouting at you. Your eyes had gone wide at his words.

Did he know your parents?

And what did he mean by ‚get rid of‘?

He seemed to have read your mind and continued.

„Hey, it‘s not my fault your parents wouldn‘t fall for any of my traps. I had no other choice than to kill them. I was just doing my job.“ He looked at you blankly shrugging his shoulders as if it wasn‘t a big deal that he just confessed to killing your parents. Your parents who you had believed to have died in a tragic plane crash when you were still a little girl.

It was murder...

Your mind was racing with thoughts and questions and you couldn‘t bring yourself up to say even a single word.

„Impressive right? First your parents and now their beloved daughter. I would‘ve found you much earlier though if it hadn‘t been for a tease of a guardian angel who followed you around like a lost puppy. Do you know how happy I was when he finally backed down from his duty?“

You were only half-heartedly listening to his blabbering since you didn‘t really understand what he was saying and you had to come up with a plan to escape.

„Let me tell you about your lovely parents, princess.“ You almost gagged at his choice of words but your focus was on him again as you were curious what he had to say. „They were good people... too good. I tried everything, literally everything to bring them down but they only got stronger with each trial I sent their way. One day I just had enough and decided it was time for them to leave. I wanted to eliminate everyone from their bloodline so when I came to know that they had a little daughter I was determined to find you and finish my work. I get bored easily, Y/N. Hell isn‘t really a fun place to be in. The earth is much more fun and I can do whatever I want. Well as long as these poultries leave me alone.“ Jimin clicked his tongue rolling his eyes dramatically.

He was crazy, you thought. Completely insane. You didn‘t know how much of his story you could actually believe but you didn‘t have the time to decide because you were in great danger. You had to think of a plan quickly if you wanted to make it out alive. Looking over to the clock you sighed internally, it was only eleven o’clock and Taehyung wouldn‘t be home until midnight. You weren‘t sure if you could distract Jimin for a whole sixty minutes.

„I wonder why they took your guardian angel down though... He had been with you since forever.“ He was thinking out loud and you opened your mouth to get more information out of him and stall him until Taehyung would be back.

„Who... are you talking about?“

Jimin laughed mockingly coming so close to your face that your nose almost touched. You were disgusted by his presence so close to you but you had no other choice than to look into his black eyes.

„You have no clue do you?“

You couldn‘t even properly shake your head since you were still sitting on the couch as stiff as a board. He pinched your cheeks and a cold shiver ran down your spine.

„Your guardian angel is...“

The door suddenly flung open and Taehyung stood in the frame with a furious look in his eyes when he spotted his enemy on your couch with his hand on your cheek. Jimin looked up and for a moment you could see a hint of fear light up in his eyes. But it vanished as fast as it came and he started laughing like a mad man again.

„Oh what an entrance. We were just talking about you.“

Taehyung‘s eyes softened when he looked at you and saw that you were still okay. He had feared that he would be too late. He rushed towards you in an attempt to pull you away from Jimin but before he could touch you something slammed him back against the wall on the other side of your apartment. A loud growl escaped his lips when he slumped down the wall and stayed there with his head hanging low.

„Taehyung!“, you screamed but the invisible force shut your mouth from saying another word. Tears escaped your eyes rolling down your cheeks warming up your cold skin. Taehyung was still not moving as you desperately tried to break free from your stiffness but to no avail. Jimin sat in front of you blocking your view of Taehyung’s weak body forcing you to look at him instead. You wanted to slap his dirty grin right off of his face, so much anger boiling inside of you.

„Your little guardian angel can‘t save you anymore. He‘s just an ordinary mortal now. One snap and he‘s dead.“

Jimin snapped with his fingers chuckling lowly when a loud painful cry came from behind his back where Taehyung was lying. Your eyes had gone wide as you kept getting weaker and weaker. You couldn‘t take it anymore, you couldn‘t even move to see if Taehyung was still alive.

Taehyung... he was your guardian angel.

The thought finally got into your mind causing you to cry even more. He was in this terrible state because of you and you couldn‘t even help him. In fact, you couldn‘t even help yourself you thought sadly. Thinking about everything Jimin had told you, you finally started to put the pieces together figuring out that the stories about angels and demons weren‘t just imaginary stories after all. They were all real and you have somehow managed to get right in the middle of one.

While you were thinking about all of that there was only one thought that was louder than all of the others.

Survive!

Jimin began stroking your hair gently moving closer and closer. He stopped right before his lips could touch yours a smug smile spreading across his face.

„I‘m in a good mood today“, he whispered staring down at your lips as you held your breath hoping for it all to be just over.

„So I won‘t torture you as I did with your parents.“ You winced closing your eyes an ice-cold shiver running down your spine at the thought of his words.

„Shh... shh... it‘s alright Y/N... it‘ll all be over soon“, he spoke soothingly stroking your hair once again.

His other hand moved slowly behind his back pulling a long silver knife out of his pocket. Your breath hitched as your eyes fixed the shiny weapon in his left hand and you prepared yourself for the worst case. Squeezing your eyes shut you waited for it all to end. Your body was drained of energy and the invisible force around you seemed to suck the last drops of energy you had left inside of you.

You were still crying but not because of your own fate but because of the man behind Jimin who had sacrificed himself to save you. The thought of someone being there with you all along made you feel at peace even in your miserable state.

Thank you, Taehyung.

Your eyes were still closed when you suddenly heard a shrill cry in front of you and you gained control over your body again. You opened your eyes and looked right into Jimin‘s eyes, they were completely black and lifeless. His face was contorted in pain his mouth hanging wide open while you looked down to finally realize what was going on. A giant red stain was slowly spreading across his white dress shirt as he pressed both of his hands against the wound, a desperate attempt to stop the blood flow. With a loud thud, he tipped over and fell to the ground revealing Taehyung behind, holding a bloodstained dagger in his hand.

Right, when you were about to jump on him excitedly the dagger fell out of his weak hand and he followed shortly after.

„Taehyung!“, you shouted rushing next to him heaving his head onto your lap so you could hold him in your arms. Gently patting his cheeks you kept repeating how everything was going to be just fine in an attempt to calm him but mainly yourself down.

Looking at the deep cut across his chest that Jimin had caused earlier, you could tell that he wasn‘t in a good condition.

Tears streamed down your face you called the ambulance and gave them all the information they needed.

„Hold on, Taehyung... please don‘t leave me.“ Your voice was merely a whisper as you ran your fingers through his hair lovingly. Looking down at him you finally let yourself admit your feelings. You‘d fallen for him and knew you couldn‘t bear to watch him suffer like this.

„Y/N...“, he croaked out bringing his right hand up to gently place it on your burning cheek. He softly wiped your tears away with his thumbs a small smile tugged on his lips as he looked into your eyes.

He had waited for so long to be able to touch you like this and it felt even better than he had imagined. All this time there had only been one aim in his life, and that was to protect you from the cold-blooded demon that murdered your parents. And looking at the lifeless body next to him on the floor he knew that he‘d fulfilled his purpose in life successfully. He was lucky he had found a sacred dagger in a nearby church and had it hidden in the big vase in your living room.

„...now... you‘re safe..“, he rattled struggling to speak freely. He couldn‘t feel his legs anymore but he was happy nonetheless. Looking into your teary eyes he was able to block out the pain of his body.

There was only one thing he needed to do before he could finally find his peace. That one thing that made him lose his job as your guardian angel, that one thing that made him risk everything and turn his back on his past life forever. That one last thing he had to tell you even if he‘d never hear it being said back.

„I love you, Y/N.“

Your heart skipped a beat and it took a second to comprehend the words directed towards you. Without losing another second you replied smiling through your tears.

„I love you too, Taehyung.“

Leaning down you pressed a firm kiss on his lips feeling an explosion of emotions inside of your chest. His hand moved from your cheek to your neck drawing little circles on your skin. Kissing Taehyung felt like you had finally reached your destination. It felt like coming home after a long long journey and letting yourself fall into your bed. He tasted sweet and light just like cotton candy and you could imagine getting used to this taste for the rest of your life.

But the moment abruptly came to a stop when his hand slid off your neck and lifelessly slumped down next to his body. You pulled back in panic shaking his chest with both of your hands. But his eyes remained closed and his lips were pulled into a peaceful smile.

„Taehyung...?“

No reaction.

„Tae...“, you cried out letting your head fall onto his chest as silence swallowed you.

He was gone forever.

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